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ClevelandBronco · 07-08-2019, 10:55 PM

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Originally Posted by rabblerouser

10 months...but it's more than that.

It's everything, I ruined my entire life.

So it's clear to you that your life is in ruins. Many of us have come to understand the blessing of that sort of clarity.

Now you get to throw out all the useless shit that hasn't worked, and rebuild from the foundation up.

Let go. Breathe. I mean it. Breathe. Take a few minutes, turn off all the noise and concentrate on breathing. You've been doing it as long as you've been alive. Now take in fresh bits of your new life with each breath. When you're feeling out of balance, just spend a few moments really experiencing your breathing. In this simple, usually unconscious action you spend this present moment inhaling that which will sustain you in the future, and exhaling that stuff from your past that is no longer useful.

Don't lose the faith, brother. We need and want you here.

By the way, ****ing weed was one of the host of things that didn't work. Don't even bother trying to lie to yourself about that.

Sweet Daddy Hate · 07-09-2019, 12:01 AM

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Originally Posted by rabblerouser

10 months...but it's more than that.

It's everything, I ruined my entire life.

I "ruined my entire life" at 40 years old. 3 years later, my life was better than it had ever been. In every possible way.

Fishpicker · 07-11-2019, 10:05 PM

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Originally Posted by Sweet Daddy Hate

I "ruined my entire life" at 40 years old. 3 years later, my life was better than it had ever been. In every possible way.

what'd you do?

Sweet Daddy Hate · 07-12-2019, 12:06 AM

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Originally Posted by Fishpicker

what'd you do?

With all due respect, I don't share details on this board.

cosmo20002 · 07-09-2019, 01:16 AM

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Originally Posted by rabblerouser

10 months...but it's more than that.

It's everything, I ruined my entire life.

Posting how you're a Holocaust denier might cheer you up. Oh, you already did that.

Rasputin · 07-09-2019, 04:41 AM

You could be living in a van down by the river.

Sweet Daddy Hate · 07-09-2019, 06:16 AM

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Originally Posted by KC Tattoo

You could be living in a van down by the river.

Or living in the same house as Cosmutt.

eDave · 07-08-2019, 11:23 PM

I'm outgrowing weed, am smoking far less, and am finding I'm far happier.

Hey rabble:

I've been the emerging sapling many times. Always growing taller.

Stop the negative thoughts.

raidersnumber1 · 07-08-2019, 11:35 PM

we are all gonna make it frens.

**ChiTown** · 07-09-2019, 06:11 AM

Can I give you a little advice, rabblerouser?

Get away from all social media. Turn off your computer, put down your phone and get engaged with people and with the outdoors. Join some clubs, volunteer your time, find some new friends, take on a project inside/outside your house, find a new purpose for being here. It is going to be ok, but you have to be the one to make the move. The internet and social media aren’t your friends right now. They’re just places to continue to bury yourself in solitude. You need real interaction outside your home.

Good luck, Brother. I’m praying for you.

rabblerouser · 07-09-2019, 01:00 PM

It just sucks. I have no life anymore. I CAN'T go do things - I wake up at 5AM to see if I have to drop a UA before work. I go to see my PO once a week before work. I work 9 hours a day. I go to court every other week at lunch. I go to groups Mondays and Fridays at lunch. I see my counselor on Wednesdays at lunch. I see a therapist on Thursdays at lunch. I get home, take my dog for a walk in the park most days. I go to NA meetings on Tuesdays and Saturdays. I do the homework for court and groups. I don't have any family. My girlfriend broke up with me. My life is just abject misery.

I hate myself. Period. Talking about it all day doesn't help. I wake up shaking with anxiety. My first thought each day is "kill yourself." My last thought each day is "kill yourself." Peppered with several similar thoughts throughout the day.

About to go to court right now...

Abba-Dabba · 07-09-2019, 01:17 PM

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Originally Posted by rabblerouser

It just sucks. I have no life anymore. I CAN'T go do things - I wake up at 5AM to see if I have to drop a UA before work. I go to see my PO once a week before work. I work 9 hours a day. I go to court every other week at lunch. I go to groups Mondays and Fridays at lunch. I see my counselor on Wednesdays at lunch. I see a therapist on Thursdays at lunch. I get home, take my dog for a walk in the park most days. I go to NA meetings on Tuesdays and Saturdays. I do the homework for court and groups. I don't have any family. My girlfriend broke up with me. My life is just abject misery.

I hate myself. Period. Talking about it all day doesn't help. I wake up shaking with anxiety. My first thought each day is "kill yourself." My last thought each day is "kill yourself." Peppered with several similar thoughts throughout the day.

About to go to court right now...

Sounds like you need to commit yourself into a mental health facility.

rabblerouser · 07-09-2019, 02:55 PM

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Originally Posted by RubberSponge

Sounds like you need to commit yourself into a mental health facility.

Impossible.

ClevelandBronco · 07-09-2019, 02:58 PM

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Originally Posted by rabblerouser

Impossible.

Don't say it's impossible because you'll lose your job. If you don't get a handle on this, you'll likely lose more than that.

**Fire Me Boy!** · 07-09-2019, 03:19 PM

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Originally Posted by rabblerouser

Impossible.

Look into FMLA. It will protect your job.

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ChiTown Stroking to the SB Champs! Join Date: Aug 2000 Location: Flatlands of Kansas Casino cash: $2903962	Can I give you a little advice, rabblerouser? Get away from all social media. Turn off your computer, put down your phone and get engaged with people and with the outdoors. Join some clubs, volunteer your time, find some new friends, take on a project inside/outside your house, find a new purpose for being here. It is going to be ok, but you have to be the one to make the move. The internet and social media aren’t your friends right now. They’re just places to continue to bury yourself in solitude. You need real interaction outside your home. Good luck, Brother. I’m praying for you. __________________
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rabblerouser left blank intentionally Join Date: Oct 2012 Location: Belize Nuts Casino cash: $4664897	It just sucks. I have no life anymore. I CAN'T go do things - I wake up at 5AM to see if I have to drop a UA before work. I go to see my PO once a week before work. I work 9 hours a day. I go to court every other week at lunch. I go to groups Mondays and Fridays at lunch. I see my counselor on Wednesdays at lunch. I see a therapist on Thursdays at lunch. I get home, take my dog for a walk in the park most days. I go to NA meetings on Tuesdays and Saturdays. I do the homework for court and groups. I don't have any family. My girlfriend broke up with me. My life is just abject misery. I hate myself. Period. Talking about it all day doesn't help. I wake up shaking with anxiety. My first thought each day is "kill yourself." My last thought each day is "kill yourself." Peppered with several similar thoughts throughout the day. About to go to court right now... __________________ MY ADOPT-A-CHIEF : Jody Fortson Jr.
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