[rtmike]

I don’t know what it is or why it happens.

Years back, a friend of a friend of mine was walking downtown with his wife. They were out on date night. They had like 4-5 kids, all under 8.
Well, there was a shoot out next block over and an errant bullet struck him in the head killing him. That took me down.

It’s strange how some things or people that are so distant can have such a profound affect on us.
Ia Chief, all that and I have no advice,smh. Back then it was just another excuse for me to drink, smh.
I imagine this helps otherwise you wouldn’t have posted. You obviously have a big heart and I’m sorry it’s aching right now. Time...time heals.

Personally, I don’t care for shrinks, etc. cause with me it seems they always wanted to talk about and blame my parents for everything, lol.

You know back in my bachelor days my beliefes were deep. I thought I was doing everything right but that didn’t stop lots of bad stuff from happening.
And it’s been non stop, even after I was paralyzed as I’ve cheated death a couple more times, smh. That should have never stopped me from being a good Christian, lol, but I have a major beef with HIM.