Hey!

Man, I just......I'm sorry.

I lost a couple of friends in my early 20's to suicide. The first was my sophomore year in college and while I was close with him, I had only known him a few years. My emotions were pissed off that he would be a coward and do this to himself, take the easy way out. I refused to go to his funeral. He didn't deserve my condolences or respect. Two years later, one of my best friends, who was a few years younger than me, and who I knew since we were toddlers, and followed me to my same college and lived across the hall from me and my roommate that all went to the same HS. I knew this kid well and loved him like a brother... He killed himself the year after I graduated college and he was still in school. It hurt like hell and made me change my attitude. I knew this kid and knew it wasn't in his nature to quit,I found out he was diagnosed bi-polar and the pain he must have felt was so bad he still left his friends and families devastated, which he would never have wanted, as he loved them all greatly. I look back now and realize I was a coward for not understanding it when my other friend died and I how poorly I handled that situation. I am not mad at either one, I know the pain was horrible and don't pretend to fully understand it, but I don't blame them. These took place nearly 30 years ago, and I have shared my story with several other folks who have experienced a tragic suicide who are angry, disappointed or just in disbelief. I don't blame them, I loved them, and I fondly remember the good memories of the time we spent together. You are in my thoughts.

Deeply sorry. I know it doesn't seem real yet to you. I lost my best childhood friend in 2009. He was a cop and was murdered on duty. It's still rough. We all go and most of the time .... the circumstances appear wrong and unimaginable. Hope it gets better.

Kill yourself bundle of sticks

As a person who survived a suicide attempt, I know that all the pain that led up to the decision to end my life, suddenly stopped once I made the decision that decision. I experienced the most calm, peaceful feeling the entire day leading up to it.

Before I actually made that decision, when contemplating whether or not to do it, I always worried the most about all the people that I would hurt if I did commit suicide. Those people are the real victims of a suicide.

Unfortunately, depression plays with your mind, and soon you convince yourself that no one will actually care that you are gone, and with that the last obstacle is gone.

To people hurt by suicide, I would say that it is not your fault. Don't blame yourself for not seeing "the signs" or not knowing that your friend was suffering. The proverbial cry for help that we see so many times in movies or television isn't always an actual thing. I would say that as horrible as it may sound, your friend is no longer suffering, and while you are experiencing the pain of loss, your friend experienced worse for a long time.

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Just a friendly reminder that there is a rule about being a douchebag in a thread like this.

Candyman has been removed from the thread for adding a DC element to his douchiness and I will remove anyone else who continues with posts like the ones below.

This thread is really sad. My heart goes out to all of you who have experienced this sort of loss. My prayers go out to all who suffer from depression. Awful stuff. Some of your stories are just gut-wrenching. :(

I'm sorry.... I lost a friend that I had known since 1st grade on Sept. 1st

There is going to be a dickton more unless people can handle grief plus the flu that is whay depression for me feels like. My dog dying plus the flu. It is terrible.

I can only offer prayer.
This has become quite a problem in the country.
COVID scare...lock down...Kids can't go to school.
sorry about you losing a friend

Noted. It wasn’t designated as a prayers thread so thanks for letting me know.

sorry to hear it TLO.

Man I don't think I can watch this but I will sometime but even though I've attempted myself the worse was when I found my daughter unconcious and I called 911 but I knew something was up with her from her behavior and I had the cops come over to talk to her and was hoping they would take her but she told them she didn't have a plan but the plan was she already overdosed. The hospital saved her life but if I wasn't there to make the call. i don't want to think about it.

Prayers for you man.

Prayers to you too my brother!!