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Heartbroken. Devasted. Lost. I just lost my best friend of ten years. When Karlee came into my life I didn't like any dogs and hated big dogs. I didn't want her. Didn't need that chaos in my life. Oh was I ever wrong.
She had the kindest, most gentle soul. We love all three of our dogs but Karlee was just different. Almost human.
Karlee was the dog that would protect a baby bunny or baby bird and alert us so we could get it to safety. She didn't mind chasing adult animals or birds but she knew babies needed her protection.
Yesterday afternoon she suffered a stroke, seizure, or back problem. We took her to the puppy ER. They advised us to take her home and watch her for a couple days.
Last night I had a feeling she wasn't going to make it and told my wife I thought we'd better say goodbye before bed. My wife and I talked to her for a long time. Thanked her for lots of things. We told her it was okay to go and we love her so much and that we know she loves us. We were bawling and heartbroken. We were sitting on the floor by her and when I started crying really hard she lifted her head and hugged me for like ten seconds. She also held my hand with her paw. With that hug she told me that it was okay and she loved me. That exhausted her and she had to lay her head back down. She also kept reaching for Christy's hand while we talked to her.
Karlee changed me. She made me a better person. It makes no logical sense to me that I hurt this bad right now but I do. I love Karlee. She was family. I don't know what I'll do when I come home from work and she's not there with her gigantic ears pinned back and a giant smile on her face. I'm broken.
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